Ten kilos
Filed under Weight Loss
Remember my obsession with losing weight? Boy, I almost lost sight of it completely, didn’t I! Quel dommage! Let’s remedy that.
I’ve been steadily gaining weight since Easter. There are many reasons, some of which are lame excuses, some of which are reasonably legitimate. The most devastating realization is this: if I stray from my usual diet and exercise routine for more than two days, the weight is coming back. This seems wrong. Mostly, because it means that I can never go back to eating “normal”. Which, in turn, means of course that nothing has actually changed in my head or in my lifestyle.
Nevertheless, I have lost 35 kilos (or 77 lbs.) since I first started and it has changed me for the better, I believe. I still want to reach my dream goal, come what may, because it’s so close and I’m already so much more at ease with my body and my self. For now, it’s all about losing more weight in the same manner I have for the past 17 months: as few calories as possible, zero fat, regular cycling. Like I said, I’ve eaten bigger portions and more fat and sweet stuff since Easter. I need to get my body back to that wonderful place I already know, where it actually craves the fruits and the veggies and lean meat once a week and the nightly workout.
And because posting things online somehow make them more real to me – you know, it’s out there, it’s official – I just wanted to say that I’m attempting to really focus on this again. Get it done once and for all, and make a new plan once I’ve reached the numbers. (Because, as we all know, the numbers alone don’t mean everything.)
Small portions throughout the day. My cycling routine every night. A single treat per day, something tiny that won’t mess up my calorie count. — I realize this sounds ridiculous to many of you, those who even read these posts anymore and do not stay away out of sheer boredom. But it’s worked for me in the past and I’m trying to get motivated again to “finish” this whole damn project that’s already lasted almost half a year longer than I had hoped.
Wish me luck and the strength to make it through to the other side! Heh.
May20
May 20, 2011 at 6:21 pm
Getting ready for the bed the other night, I looked in the mirror while I was still undressed and noticed that I might be gaining a little of my weight back. Slowly but surely. The scale said I’d gained 2 pounds. My easy weight loss is from my medication combo, something that I didn’t know would happen. I’m not complaining! I know I’m gaining again because I’ve missed taking my meds a handful of days lately. So, I’m going to get back on my meds but also start toning my body again. I was really happy with my weight for a while and I don’t want to lose that ever again.
May 23, 2011 at 6:51 pm
You can do it. You’ve done it before and you can do it again!