What a difference a year can make
Filed under Weight Loss
Actually, it’s more scary than neat. But also awesome because it could potentially motivate me to keep going. The thing is, tragically and surprisingly, it doesn’t. I look at this, and the annoyingly childish part of my brain screams, “I’ve worked on this a whole year and I’ve come this far. It’s enough already.” Which is really, really stupid. Because I’m not where I want to be yet.
A break, I suppose, would be fine. Stop with the intense calorie-counting for a bit and the exercise regiment every single night. But that doesn’t work for me. I did that and immediately fell back into the awful old habits and gained weight again. Which is so devastating to me. I know a setback should be okay- but I have worked so hard for every damn kilo I’ve lost; this has not been easy at all, it’s been an immense struggle. It’s so much work to lose a single kilo, and it takes so little – some laziness, a couple big meals, a whole weekend watching TV, a donut or a cheeseburger – and the kilo is back.
I emailed my brother Chris to see if he has any ideas because he has lost much more weight than me already and is still going strong. He is as disciplined as they come, though, and I am… not. Heh. I’m also impatient and if I don’t see my efforts paying off quickly, I tend to give up right away.
I set myself a new short-term goal: get rid of 5kg within the next 14 days – that is, until I leave for Sweden. I want to do whatever it takes. I just need to see some progress again to get back in the spirit of things.
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February 19, 2011 at 9:50 pm
The difference is mind-blowing. You accomplished so, so much! May I ask how tall I am and what your goal weight is?
Most important thing is that you keep up with the exercise. I think that is the most important thing. A few years ago, in College, when I exercised every day, I could literally eat what I wanted and I would hold my weight (or even lose some).
Also, indulge when you really have a craving for something… if you deny yourself things all the time, you’ll eventually break down and the repercussions are going to be far worse.
February 19, 2011 at 9:51 pm
P.S. Of course I meant “May I ask how tall you are…”, I know how tall I am, obviously ;)
February 19, 2011 at 10:50 pm
I’m 1,72m, and eventually I want to get my weight down to 65kg.
And thanks for the advice! <3
February 20, 2011 at 11:44 pm
I am honestly so so proud of your weight loss and it inspired/inspires me to keep working at the same project.
And like San, I don’t think it’s bad to indulge or…slack off…that’s not the right words. But the goal is to create a healthy lifestyle that you can maintain the rest of your life. I mean, let’s be real, you’re going to eat ice cream at least ONCE the rest of your life.
So don’t give yourself a free ride and backslide, but enjoy your life AND being healthy.